Friday 13 May 2016

#NEW CHAPTER ~ 14.

This post is dedicated to someone who just gets it. So enjoy my loves...

It's hard to keep friends or even have friends whilst you've got a mental illness.
It's hard to be in relationships or even want to be in a relationship when you're suffering on a daily basis.

How can you expect someone to always want to stay in with you? How can you expect someone to understand why you're feeling so low about yourself?

I didn't think I'd speak to someone who just gets it. Like, my personal thing to do is write or chill and watch some cool series on Netflix, before I even contemplate going out I've literally got to sike myself up and tell myself it isn't going to be as bad as I think it's going to be.

I was speaking to someone the other day about this and when you come into any type of relationship with someone that has come kinda mental illness, you've gotta allow yourself to become vulnerable sometimes.
Too many times have I started arguments with my boyfriend just because I didn't want to allow myself to fall into that vulnerable scared state again. Because the thing is my problem is I either love fearlessly or I could just drop you like absolutely nothing. There's no in between at all, there's always a chance I'll just wake up and not feel shit for you anymore. That's just how I am..

Now to ALL you readers out there, I want you all to share the fuck outta this since after all it is Mental Health Awareness Month!!!!

I love you all boo.

Ox